Wherever I Lay My Mat

“Wherever I lay my (mat) that’s my home.” Paul Young

People often ask me, “What does yoga do, how has it affected you?” They are asking usually to see if something I say will trigger them to take up the practice, spur them on to have courage to attend a class, or they might be generally interested in why yoga has taken such a hold on my life. I used to start with a physical explanation or a few words to try to encapsulate what yoga is or does, but it was never enough, or it was too much (their eyes would start to glaze over) or I would say something that they didn’t agree with – in the end I would say to people, “Well, it has to be experienced, my words are not enough, try it!” And that’s true, but perhaps if I say some words on my own personal experience of what yoga has done for me over the last 25 years, that will provide a better answer.

I started yoga early, my mother took me to a class that she went to in the local village hall near Winchester, UK when I was just 14. A lot of 40+ women in tights lying around, moving their bodies in strange ways and even more strangely, they seemed happy! I dabbled with it at college, a few classes here and there but it was when I was 24 that I really committed myself to a regular practice. I was going to a class at a gym in Winchester, it was huge and it was in a circle, so everyone was facing each other doing the postures…..not my most comfortable environment being the introvert that I was! So I asked the teachers if there were any other classes I could go to, she gave me a long list of telephone numbers (no mobile phones or internet in 1991…) and the only number who answered was Julie Smith, an Iyengar teacher. I’d been warned that Iyengar was “just physical yoga” but not being one to listen to anyone’s advice but to make my own mind up, I went along to her class. Firstly, it was in rows, not a circle (phew), secondly it was the hardest physical yoga I’d ever done, thirdly, when I looked out of the window my teacher said, “Rachel, pay attention, this is a yoga class, no time for day dreaming.” It was like a slap straight into my conscious mind – “Wake up!” And from that moment on, my real yoga journey began.

Bringing Yoga Home – St Catherine’s Hill Winchester UK

Julie coached me, like she did all her students, encouraged me and got me firmly on the path. Because of her I got to meet Guruji Iyengar and without her I would not be where I am today. I am eternally grateful. But back to the question, what does yoga do for me? The question stays the same but over the years the answer changes, because the path of yoga unfolds before you and the results get broader and more far reaching that you could imagine when you take your first steps. Results come quickly, even after the first class especially to those who are already fairly self-aware. In the beginning they are mostly physical – better range of movement, more muscle strength, better sleep, relief from aches and pains etc. As time goes on these physical benefits get more wide ranging and with concentrated practice and the help of a good teacher, ailments, physical and emotional problems can and often are alleviated and eradicated. Nowadays, I rarely visit the doctor, if I have a sprain or muscle ache, cold or other illness, I turn to yoga first before seeking help from Western medicine. That in itself means that mentally I am taking responsibility for myself so it inspires confidence in the body’s natural healing powers.

The emotional and mental benefits of a regular yoga practice are huge, but how can a seemingly “physical” practice affect the mind? The second yoga sutra of Patanjali says – yoga cittavritti nirodhah “Yoga stills the fluctuations of the mind” so 2,000 years ago, it was known that the practice of yoga could have this affect, that by applying ourselves to ourselves and to the study of the body through postures, breathing, refinement and regular practice, our busy minds could find a way to stillness. As someone who has intermittent bouts of depression and anxiety, or for any of us in times of grief or loss, heartache or turbulence, this practice has been hugely important for me personally in helping to move my way through these waves and to help others also to reach calmer waters.

But perhaps the most surprising effect of yoga for me, has been in the way it has completely shaped and changed my life and introduced me to a wider community. Through the teacher training and ongoing teaching and learning, I have had the opportunity to travel the world and meet people from all walks of life, connect with them through a common bond of yoga that unites so many of us.  Practicing  and studying together and teaching so many wonderful people has expanded my horizons in every direction. Because of yoga I was able to move to another country, find like minded people, start teaching and start a small community of students. Over the years I have now managed to branch out and teach and practice in other countries, travelling alone and happily anywhere that I am invited to teach or to the US to study with my teacher, Manouso, or to India to study with the Iyengar family.  My younger, introverted self would have dreaded the thought of leaving home, but now I travel with ease and through the practice, as the song says, “wherever I lay my (mat), that’s my home”.

So my answer really to those who ask is, Yoga is far-reaching, it will surprise and delight you, sustain you in times of hardship, lift you up in times of grief, bring you good feelings in your body and mind and be a friend to you whenever you need it. You will even meet more people and maybe discover new friends and connections and become part of a wider family. But you have to have a sustained practice to realise all these benefits. Although I’m still far from having a constantly calm mind, free of fluctuations, I get glimpses now and again and I know I’m on the right path, and as BKS Iyengar says: “Illuminated emancipation, freedom, unalloyed and untainted bliss await you, but you have to choose to embark on the Inward Journey to discover it.”